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[13 Dec 2005|03:43pm] |
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Mary, did you know
That your baby boy
Would someday walk on water?
Mary did you know
That your baby boy
Will save our sons and daughters?
Did you know
That your baby boy
Has come to make you new?
This child that you've delivered
Will soon deliver you.
Mary did you know
That your baby boy
Will give sight to a blind man?
Mary did you know
That your baby boy
Will calm the storm with his hand?
Did you know that your baby boy
Has walked where angels trod?
When you kiss your little baby
You've kissed the face of God.
The blind will see
The deaf will hear
The dead will live again
The lame will leap
The dumb will speak
The praises of the Lamb
Mary did you know
That your baby boy
Is Lord of all creation?
Mary did you know
That your baby boy
Will one day rule the nations?
Did you know
That your baby boy
Is heaven's perfect Lamb?
This sleeping child you're holding
Is the Great I Am
life is fab.
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[14 Nov 2005|09:21pm] |
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I'll always have that knawing feeling of wanting and needing to do or say a certain thing, but never quite have the nerve to do it. I used to tell myself theres always tomorrow, but now there is no tomorrow, and I'm left with wondering what if. It's an annoying feeling, but I'm starting to adjust. I'll catch your eye from time to time... and it's still there. That nervous feeling that you know exactly what I'm thinking. Your eyes pierce through me like daggers, but are gentle all the same. I find myself hating the way I feel everytime I catch your glance, but somehow I wish it would last longer than just a few seconds. You know more about me than I do, and I know you wish you didn't. There are so many things I want to say... but I know nothing would change, so I keep them to myself until maybe they go away. Each time I think I'm through with guessing and thinking and wondering... I catch that glance... and it comes flooding back. You'll always have that effect on me, but we'll never act on it.
There's no use in waiting when I know you won't say anything. So what's left to do?..
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i sucked last night.
my knee popped out of joint causeing me to mess up on my dance.
which sucked.
and my rifle work sucked.
but my flag work was awesome.
i dont think i made A guard.
but i hope to GOD i did, its my senior year and i dont want to be another Linda Ann Rudy.
yeah thanks, pray for me...
we dont find out til AFTER championships.
sucky.
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it always happens.
grrrrrr.
winterguard tryouts tonight.
yay
wish me luck</3
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| I love Frances Martinez |
[06 Nov 2005|07:29pm] |
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my0HEARTisinOHIO: i'm thinking about doing teal sound's guard
my0HEARTisinOHIO: the director just IMed me
Beautyispain1015: wheres it at
Beautyispain1015: u serious ?
my0HEARTisinOHIO: i mean emailed me
my0HEARTisinOHIO: sorry
Beautyispain1015: o
Beautyispain1015: lol
my0HEARTisinOHIO: lol
Beautyispain1015: wats teal sound guard
my0HEARTisinOHIO: Teal Sound
my0HEARTisinOHIO: thier marching guard
Beautyispain1015: what teal sound
Beautyispain1015: u know me im retarded
my0HEARTisinOHIO: the DCI
Beautyispain1015: OH SHIT
Beautyispain1015: lol
Beautyispain1015: okay so how about yes u should
my0HEARTisinOHIO: hahaha
my0HEARTisinOHIO: i dunno
my0HEARTisinOHIO: im going to talk to Mr. Adams about it
Beautyispain1015: definitely should
Beautyispain1015: i mean ur fucking good for just a couple of months
Beautyispain1015: sometimes i just wanna slap u
my0HEARTisinOHIO: hahaha
Beautyispain1015: haha
Beautyispain1015: i love u
my0HEARTisinOHIO: i love u frances
my0HEARTisinOHIO: u like trip me out
Beautyispain1015: really ? hahaha well make sure u dont fall on ur ass
my0HEARTisinOHIO: haha
my0HEARTisinOHIO: liek he said we have one of the most the hardest work out there right now.
Beautyispain1015: hell yeah foo
Beautyispain1015: and second
Beautyispain1015: hott ass guard instructor
my0HEARTisinOHIO: hahaha
Teal sound can be a pathway to Paradigm.....hmmmm....
i'll consider it.
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Everything is super duper right now.
i'm loving life right now as long as something doesnt go wrong for me.
i pray every night to ensure my blessing to continue.
thanks God.
Grand Champions....again....not as exciting, but exciting never the less.
FBA this saturday, then state on th 19th. I hope we dont get slapped in the face with our egos.
We are 7th in our class as of right now (with timber creek and such)
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything he does is beautiful
Everything he does is right
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[26 Oct 2005|09:46pm] |
i want something.
i want it but i dont know if it will happen.
i think about IT constantly and think of what ifs and what if nots.
::sigh:: DAMN IT.
Oh why cant I be what you need?
A new improved version of me
But Im nothing so good
just bones a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow.
I beg for just one more tomorrow
Where you'd hold me down,fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins
I'd break in two over you
I'd break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life!
But you don't see me You dont
Here Im pinned between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
Where Im tossing and tortured till dawn
by you, visions of you, then youre gone
The shock bleeds the red from my face,
when i hear someone's taken my place.
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that i did was for you....
Now you see me, now you don't...
Now you need me, now you don't..
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[20 Oct 2005|06:03am] |
this weekend i'm going to halloween horror nights with
anthony,adam,chris lemay,hannah,evan wilkes,ruben,giovanni,hector,jason,ranze and carlos.
its going to be fun as shiiiiiiiiiiiiit.
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| Yep Yep Yep<3 |
[10 Oct 2005|08:32pm] |
i'm the luckiest girl ever
my bestest best friend just won 2 tickets to Halloween Horror NiGHTSSSSSSSSSSSS
i caNT fucking WAAAAAAAAAAAAIT.
i love you ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuubykins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
yesssssssssss.
Competetion on Saturday.
I think we are ready.....kinda?
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| It's A Guard Thing♥ |
[28 Sep 2005|09:52pm] |
WHAT IT'S LIKE
Adrenaline pumping hearts beating,
Fingers throbbing, music leading.
All a part of a sport called colorguard,
The taste of sweat, you know it gets hard,
But ask any teammate, they'll probably say,
That's ok I like it that way.
All teammates are friends, each helps the other,
But practice isn't a time to call for your mother.
Tough it out, the coach might yell,
but with that phrase the attitudes swell.
Then those famous words come a new,
Set it up once lets do a run through.
Your music ends and you're breathing quite a bit faster,
You did a good run and you think you're the master.
Time to load the truck, it's not that bad,
Every one helps, even the dads.
Now time to relax, getting on the bus,
Now wait your hair now there's a fuss.
The gel, the spray, it all goes on there,
And now you don't even want to touch your hair.
Put on your makeup so it'll look right,
Don't mess it up, we don't want to fight.
Put on the headphones and litsten to "your" song,
Listen, relax, it won't be very long.
The bus comes to a stop, everyone knows that they're there,
Someone wakes you up and you check your hair.
Get all your stuff people and get on out here,
Now it sets in, just a little bit of fear.
You get to your room and take of your shoes,
Take a deep breath, there's nothing to lose.
Warm up and stretch out, get that equipment flying,
Don't busy yourself yet, don't want to see you crying.
Get your equipment and get ready to go,
Line up in the hall to put on your show.
They pull all the equipment on to the floor,
You step a little bit closer and look through the door.
The crowd is huge, you don't think you'll make it,
Breath nice and slow, you know you can take it.
It's your turn to put on your show,
Walk with pride you know it will flow.
Is the guard ready? Ya you think so,
Sandalwood High School you may present your show.
Look up at the crowd, make sure they see you,
It's your last chance, don't let this thing beat you.
Vibrant flags fly fiercely over head,
Catch it right or your arm will red.
Crack that rifle, you know you can do it,
All right, nice job, I knew you knew it.
Here comes the end, don't break down just yet,
It will be awesome, this is what I bet.
The zip of the flag, the final snag,
It looks great, you got it in the bag.
With hands trembling, you get up and say,
Yes, see I told ya I like it this way.
Watery eyes, spontaneous combustion of tears,
Screaming, excitement initiated cheers.
Go ahead let it out, you gave it your all,
Don't hold back, admit it, you had a ball.
You showed all those people what you got in you,
Some pain, some love, need I continue?
Some strength, some friendship, some talent, and grace,
You spread it around all over that place.
Just when you thought you were gonna be knocked down,
You bounced right back and refused to go down.
With all those going for ya, where next from here?
Do you know where you'll end up next year?
This is what makes up a colorguard,
Some people try but don't make it because it's too hard.
All the stress and the anger, some people can't take it,
And somewhere inside they know they won't make it.
All of my teammates have this desire,
Something in their heart that lights a fire.
To do all they need to, to pull off a show,
But what I hate the most is to see them all go.
So just a little something to say to my girls,
To me, you mean the world.
I love you all and I want you to know,
I'm so proud of you guys and our guard show.
I really, down deep, don't want this season to end,
I'm gonna miss it all so much and all of my friends.
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[19 Sep 2005|12:28pm] |
Pretty much what i have to say is
it's done.
i drank it,on my own terms
no one forced me to do so
I willingly took the bottle and drank it (and i knew what was in it)
so fuck the ppl spreading rumors that i said that
becuz i wouldnt dare say that girl who i have known for 6+ years and say she forced the alcohol upon me
and those who said it will go to hell in a handbag
i drank it.
here for the whole world to see, since i know parents and everyone read this stuff.
we are paying for our crimes.
the end.
but i better not be benched the senior or homecoming game.
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| My little baby.... |
[07 Sep 2005|09:27pm] |
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This makes me happy and sad at the same time....
Happy that CJ is getting somewhere....and actually made chiefs.
Sad that my little Kimmy DeKonick is grown up and marching her little heart out.
i love you.
Miss you.
I'll see you saturday.
You too Kenny
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[03 Sep 2005|02:32pm] |
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Yeah, of course we lost at football....pfft. EVERYONE KNEW THAT WAS GONNA HAPPEN.
but our half time show rocked so fucking hard.....except that part in freaking loathing when the trombones were obviously not watching steven. but the rest was fcking amazing.
did i drop?
nope.
did i do my work?
yep.
did i freaking catch my double?
yessssssssssssss.
did i stop ONCE?
noooooooooooooooooo.
rifle line was together during the loathing part in the front.yay.
steven and chris did really good.
guard kicked ass last night. at warm up, i seriously was about to cry cuz i couldnt do my rifle spins becuz i was shaking.
fletcher's show was good.I didnt know what it was until someone told me, cuz the freaking announcer didnt say what the show was.i like ray charles, and thier flags did good.
when the kids in the sandalwood stands started saying "Our band's better", i was embarassed but happy becuz i remember when we were performing last year, fletcher yelled go home townies. which was stupid considering a little less then half live over the bridge with us.
adam's little solo thing fucking rocked on snare after halftime.
i'm pretty sure its clear what really happened last night, without me saying it.(sandalwood band)
fletcher's guard has some sweet girls, and that guy on thier guard is cool.
it only gets better from here, sandalwooooooood.
Oh and my friends that are in fletcher band, say that someone IMed them and talked trash, please dont do that, cuz it makes us look like freaking assholes.
i cant wait til competetion where we will know for sure who is better, even though everyone has thier opinions.
after the game, i hung out with anthony,ruben (who missed the freaking halftime, and i almost seriously cried.becuz it was the best i have done),Brock,Ashlee,Bryan,Tyler,Ashton,Ashleigh,Kasi,Keg,Chris,Kevin....then frodo and katie.
i had fun.
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[31 Aug 2005|09:19pm] |
I hope you're happy
I hope you're happy now
I hope you're happy how you've
Hurt your cause forever
I hope you think you're clever
ELPHABA
I hope you're happy
I hope you're happy too
I hope you're proud how you would
Grovel in submission
To feed your own ambition
GLINDA & ELPHABA
So though I can't imagine how
I hope you're happy
Right now
GLINDA
Elphie, listen to me. Just say you're sorry!
You can still be with The Wizard
What you've worked and waited for
You can have all you ever wanted -
ELPHABA
I know
But I don't want it - No!
I can't want it anymore
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes
And leap...
It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
And you can't pull me down
GLINDA
Can't I make you understand
You're having delusions of grandeur?
ELPHABA
I'm through accepting limits
Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost
I'd sooner buy defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!
Glinda, come with me. Think of what we could do - together!
Unlimited
Together we're unlimited
Together we'll be the greatest team
There's ever been - Glinda!
Dreams the way we planned 'em
GLINDA
If we work in tandem
GLINDA & ELPHABA
There's no fight we cannot win
Just you and I, defying gravity
With you and I defying gravity
ELPHABA
They'll never bring us down!
Well, are you coming?
(GLINDA decides to stay behind.)
GLINDA
I hope you're happy
I hope your happy now that your choosing this -
ELPHABA
You too--
I hope it brings you bliss
GLINDA & ELPHABA
I really hope you get it
And you don't live to regret it
I hope you're happy in the end
I hope you're happy my friend
ELPHABA
So if you care to find me
Look to the Western sky!
As someone told me lately
Everyone deserves the chance to fly
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who ground me
Take a message back from me!
Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!!
GLINDA
I hope you're happy
CITIZENS OF OZ
Look at her
She's wicked
Get her!!
ELPHABA
Bring me down!
CITIZENS OF OZ
No one mourns the wicked
So we got to bring her -
ELPHABA
Ahhhh!
CITIZENS OF OZ
--Down!
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What You Really Think Of Your Friends
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Colin is your soulmate. |
| You truly love Ruben. |
| You consider Megan your true friend. |
| You know that Sean is always thinking of you. |
| You'll remember Hannah for the rest of your life. |
| You secretly think Anthony is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times. |
| You secretly think that Jamie is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker. |
| You secretly think that Bryan is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Bryan changes lovers faster than underwear. |
| You secretly think Ashlee is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Ashlee has a hidden internet romance. |
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[21 Aug 2005|10:22pm] |
there was loads of drama last night.
shams party was moved 3 times
drama started
ended up going to Fuel at 5 points until 2 in the morning with Ruben and our friend Steven.
More drama unfolded.
Went to my sisters friends apartment.
MORE DRAMA UNFOLDED.
but now everything is spiffy
this is for u 2006
"Welcome to the real world",
she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the
dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side
I wanna run through the
halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's
no such thing as the real world
Just a lie
you've got to rise above
So the good boys and girls
take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books
but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've
wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side
I wanna run through
the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's
no such thing as the real world
Just a lie
you got to rise above
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive
I wanna run through
the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's
no such thing as the real world
Just a lie
you've got to rise above
I just can't wait
til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down
the double doors
And when I stand on
these tables before you
You will know what
all this time was for
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practice went well...well except when i forgot the first move the front flags do.
i swear i might hit a trumpet in the head.
we did endurance spins.
that sucked.
then we all rode in back of mr.adam's truck...all 26 of us....lmao
now im home...im going to clean up myself, clean my room, then go out.
<33333333333i cant wait til friday
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the new principal is hitler with twin aryans in her stomach
jay kay.
but seriously, this year thus far has been WACK.im mad about everything.
there was a double kegger at gate parkway, but it got moved to some kids backyard, and i dont know where it is soooooo yeah.
im at home.
im not going to italy btw, me and ruben are going on a 7 day cruise to mexico....hahaha international waters baby.....plus its way cheaper.
i just talked to Kimmy for about 30 mins....i love her and i cant wait to spend the night in tally September 15-16 (band day) and i cant wait to party with my baby KENNY, cuz we are going to do 8 keg stands and then do it in the bathroom....hahahah jay kay!
or am i?
next week is a triple kegger at Best Western at the beach......Shambraes Bday!!!!!!!! yay! cant wait!!!!
oh gee ruben is calling me.
later alligators!
IM SO EXCITED WE LEARNED THE WORK FOR THE OPENER, AND HOPEFULLY BY FLETCHER WE WILL KNOW ALL OF THE RIFLE WORK!!!!!! YAY!!!!!
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| Now its time to say goodbye..... |
[07 Aug 2005|12:50am] |
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Summer 2005 has been the best senior year summer i could have possibly ever had.....
now i leave you with this song...
Saying Goodbye from The Muppets Take Manhattan
Saying goodbye, going away
Seems like goodbye's such a hard thing to say
Touching our hands, wondering why
It's time for saying goodbye
Saying goodbye, why is it sad?
Makes us remember the good times we've had
Much more to say, foolish to try
It's time for saying goodbye.
Don't want to leave, but we both know
Sometimes its better to go
Somehow I know, we'll meet again
Not sure quite where and I don't know just when
You're in my heart, so until then
</b>It's time for saying goodbye.
Somehow I know, we'll meet again
Not sure quite where and I don't know just when
You're in my heart so until then
Wanna smile
Wanna cry
Saying goodbye
about the last entry..... how about we NOT go on fletcher ppl's websites anymore and talk crap on them becuz, eventually it will be blamed on me cuz of what happened last year...... so yeah....it wsnt trash talking....it was a reality.
we HAVE to prove them wrong guys, is a definite thing,
Mr.Maerkel is a great director.Great directors do great things.
Let's show them how Saints do it.
work tommorrow from 12-8:30....bitch.
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